It's like jumping
It's like leaping
It's like walking on the ceiling
It's like floating
It's like flying through the air
It's like soaring
It's like gliding
It's a rocket ship you're riding
It's a feeling that can take you anywhere
So why they call it fallin'
Why they call it fallin'
Why they call it fallin'
I don't know
There was passion
There was laughter
The first morning after
I just couldn't get my feet to touch the ground
Every time we were together
We talked about forever
I was certain it was Heaven we had found
So why they call it fallin'
Why they call it fallin'
Why they call it fallin'
I don't know
But you can't live your life
Walkin in the clouds
Sooner or later
You have to come down
It's like a knife
Through the heart
When it all comes apart
It's like someone takes a pin to your balloon
It's a hole
It's a cave
It's kinda like a grave
When he tells you that he's found somebody new
So why they call it fallin'
Why they call it fallin'
Why they call it fallin'
Now I know
Ooh, why they call it fallin'
Why they call it fallin'
Now I know
'It's better to of loved and lost than to have never loved at all...' ??... No, you try loving and losing, and you decide which one is better...
I never meant to hurt you... That's not what I'm trying to do... Don't talk to you right now..?.. What the fuck?.. I'm going to talk to you... You mean a lot to me, and I can't just not talk to you... What happened meant a lot to me, so stop fucking saying that it didn't mean anything at all to me!!!! I'm so close to you, and I feel like now you're just trying to ruin that...You don't have to listen to me if you don't want, but stop accusing me of not caring, because I do!! And stop pretending like I want you to hurt, because I don't... This just isn't the right time, and deep down you know that... I'm so sorry if you're hurting! I'm not trying to... I love you, and care so much about, and I'm scared that I have lost you, but you're awesome!! Please just listen to me, and stop being stubborn! I'm sorry...
You only notice me again when it seems that I'm doing something 'wrong'... It's time for you to stop being so immature... If the thought or fact that I'm going to be with another guy bothers you this bad, then you should have thought about it before you let go of me... Sure, I'm still here, but you expected me to just be waiting... And, now, maybe you're realizing I'm here, but not waiting... You can cuss at me and do whatever the fuck else you want to do, but I'm done letting you control me... It hurts me that you don't want me to move on, but you don't want to be with me... It's one or the other... You can't have me, but not have me... You are still a huge part of me, but you don't want me to be a part of you anymore, so it's time for you to realize I'm not the bad guy!!! It's time for you to not just notice when I'm with another guy, realize that I've been waiting around on you, and I've been there, and I've forgiven you, and I still trust you... Realize that I still love you, and I still tell you that, and I still haven't given up, even after all the shit you've put me through so far... Realize how strong I've been... And stop just putting me down because I'm finally being strong enough to try to become my own self... Stop wishing and wanting me to fail, and be proud of me for picking myself up over and over... Be proud of me for pulling myself up alone after you kept pushing me down... Stop being whoever the fuck you're being right now, and just be Joshua... You're stupid for just letting go of us... Maybe you'll realize when I'm gone...
Marcus is wonderful, and I don't want to give up... But I'm scared if Joshua doesn't makeme give up, then he is going to run Marcus off... It's hard enough for me to move on, but especially to try to move on with a guy as great as Marcus and to know that it might all be over before it even began... Joshua let go of me and now he is trying to make everybody else let go too... I lost enough when I lost him, why does he have to keep taking more away from me..?..
Life is short, and unfortunately not many people REALLY see that... What is it going to take for people to really appreciate what they have..?.. Appreciate every single day of their lives?.. Appreciate their friends?.. You should never take advantage of anything... I know not many people will even really read this, and the few that do, not many of them will take it to heart and really think about it, but... still... I look back, and I wish I would have appreciated me and Joshua more... I wish we wouldn't have fought about some of the silly things we fought about some times... I wish I would have told him a million more times how much I love him... I wish we would have spent a little more time apart, so it would have made us appreciate each other more... And now, I wish I didn't take advantage of my friends as much... I just expect us to be here tomorrow, I never think about telling them how I feel because I never think they might be gone the next day, or I might be gone... At least, I used to not... Now, I think about it everysingle day... I might not be here tomorrow, and I'm not sure of how many lives I would have touched, and not many would know that they touched my life... Life's such a surprise, and you shouldn't just expect to have tomorrow... What would people do if they really did lose someone?... I'm through expecting my loved ones to be here tomorrow... Don't expect me to be here either...
'But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry'
'Maybe if I dance fast enough, I won't remember what I've lost..."
